When you are an overachiever, successful and KiND you can’t let people drain and drag you down because they can’t RELATE. It will change your personality because you will be on sets and in rooms that you don’t belong in.
Don’t you think I KNOW that if I was docile, submissive, subservient and STUPID what my life would be LIKE? Who I would of become? Where I would of ended up?
Until RECENTLY I HONESTLY was SCARED to TELL my STORY. I STILL wasn’t READY. But being at Auntie S’s beautiful home last Christmas and her pleading with me to WRITE our STORY with her beautiful, clear Doe looking eyes that mirror my Grendmothers I KNEW I had too. Nana used to look at me the SAME way.
Because my Uncle Sam who has ALWAYS had my BACK throughout my entire life whether it be OVERJOYED I was SKIPPING a GRADE. Helping me write my business PLAN, letting me drive his BRAND new CAR for my road test and being the FIRST one in my FAMILY including my parents that I told I was pregnant with DAVID. At Uncle Pupa’s funeral at THAT/
That STOOD up on a Virginia porch for HOURS on a brisk Christmas Day at I believe 77 years old this WEEK so that his great nephew who is on the SPECTRUM could experience what we did in front of 172-25 Baisley Blvd. I can so see JJ out front on Nana’s LAP. Cocooned by his Godfather Bert and ALL his cousins so he won’t elope. With Aunt Colette looking out the DOOR just like she ALWAYS has.
Sheryl Lee Ralph said to paraphrase “you can’t make someone love you, like you or even respect you. But you HAVE to look at the person in the mirror every day and LOVE who you SEE!” I do! I LOVE ME. I love who I have BECOME. It was HARD because my Mother isn’t HERE. But she left us with the people she knew would ALWAYS be there.
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