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I'm GOOD

I really am flattered by all the positive energy that my Blog has created. I am humbled that people subscribe to it and anticipate my posts. Life has a way of keeping you so consumed that it leaves little time for much else. Between my kids and my writing and remodeling my apartment I don't really have a lot of time. I have been hanging out a little bit and spending time with people that make me feel good. Throw in a hopefully very lucrative consulting venture and a dash of not giving a damn and you have created the perfect storm.

Life is just that life. It comes at you hard. It changes in the blink of an eye. I can only speak for myself but there's calm in the chaos. You have to lean on your faith. You have to believe in yourself. I was a very negative person for a long time. Sure I'm strong however after a while even I got tired of the same story. It's all how you spin things. Stop looking at that closed door. Don't put limitations on yourself. Believe that you can achieve anything that you set your mind to. Then give it to God and He will top that. I will NEVER tell you it will be EASY. I can guarantee it will be WORTH it.

I ALWAYS felt like I was the exception. That in life only bad things happened to me. I've had my moments-my rebellious teenage years that Nana said "I needed to experience because I put too much pressure on myself" but for the most part I live right. So when things happen to me that are messed up it hurts. It took me looking up one day and seeing MY KIDS together laughing and playing and how they BOTH reach for me simultaneously to realize that God knows exactly what He is doing. I had to let go of the circumstances and be grateful for the result.

We live in the best of times and the worst of times. People of color the time is NOW. Women from all walks of life seize the day! I don't smoke cigarettes anymore. I am so PROUD of myself. I am PROUD of me not just remaining comfortable and stepping out on faith and running with my desire to achieve more. My kids are my motivation. I'm GOOD. We all are.

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