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The Sweetest Days

I know its been a minute since I posted something. I WILL WRITE ALOT ABOUT Kobe-just not NOW. Although he has been laid to rest and tonight is the All-Star game, I want to wait until he and Gianna are memorialized at the Staples Center. I want to see him take center court one last time and hopefully then this poetess will have enough strength to compose something complete. NO I didn't know him personally yet he is the definition of reclamation. May God rest his soul.

I am trying to keep everything together the best way I know how. To whom much is given much is required. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to accept the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference. Daddy taught me that years ago in treatment. God knows I MISS my Father-but I'm glad he lived and I honor him daily by living in my truth. I strive to be a leader by example and to bridge the divide. To be the voice for the voiceless.

I am working on several projects at once. I am also assisting Ebonisharear with her business venture. David and Jermaine are thriving and we are blessed beyond measure. I am going to make this brief but I promise to update more often-life just gets in the way!

I am so grateful for my support system near and far! For the positivity and joy. The encouragement and laughter. For God choosing and oasis for Jermaine Jr.-a safe haven if you will-so he can be who he is and learn all the wonders that life has to offer. Ms. Geri is the real MVP because I have had great teachers and I like to think people learn from me as well. She is one of the best teachers I have encountered throughout my own childhood and Davids. Like Diana Vosswinkel(Fiore) you need teachers that think about your children years after the leave their room. Thanks for my child.....

I don't know who needs to hear this but GO for it! RIGHT now! Open up your business even if its on your kitchen table. Make that move if you need a change! Take a leap of faith! I wrote an entire television pilot in a week. I made it about my life. Things that BLACK people can relate to.  Autistic Moms can relate to. Moms of ADULTS can relate to. New Yorkers-lets see what comes! I was going to do a reboot (and I AM) but my entire life has been a MOVIE! I spent so much time complaining and wanting to do overs shittt.

.Out of ALL the things I have experienced one of the highlights was doing hennessy shots in front of Sean Penn at BB. Kings. We bought the bottle in SOMEBODY purse-the second one(after getting litt on the LIRR with the whole car (Jews and Gentiles)they said we couldnt bring it in but we could drink it here and brought us glasses and ice and he came up to me and put his arm around me-I told him "Mystic River was one of my favorite movies and leaned in close and that I am deaf and he smelled like success and sunshine" and he told me-when he turned me around that I WAS SHINING I was sooo loose AND free-  I told him "I'm happy because I have some money but it was blood money it came at a HIGH cost" and hugged him and I let go first-with Martha Stewart too she wanted to keep talking to me, I aint wanna fuck it up-and I KNOW if I EVER meet either of them again they will remember.....soooo I have to get in these ROOMS! I have to get off instagram and get in these studios! My fear of flying is over now....see you at the TOP!







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