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Love Can Build a Bridge

 I truly want to Thank GOD for ALL He does for ME! I give him ALL The Glory! He has TRULY changed my life for the BETTER! 


It didn’t happen OVERNIGHT! Each day is a gift and a LESSON. Change is NECESSARY! Some people have been the SAME way their entire lives….it’s SAD! It’s not authenticity-it’s remaining stagnant. 


My Mother raised me to be independent and humble. She showed me an example of who a hardworking and caring human being was. 


I don’t care who don’t LIKE me. I LIKE me! I don’t care who doing what! I don’t compare my journey or the one my children are on with ANYONE. I keep the ones who love and get me CLOSE. 


Quarantine and Covid taught me that we will RUN out of TIME. My last memory of my Aunt Zabrina is her sitting at the table holding J.J. rocking him. I said to her “this your baby!” She said to me “y’all all my babies.” 


I didn’t spend the last time-I MEAN the LAST time with my Uncle James talking about ANYTHING that didn’t matter. We talked about his youth in The Rockaways walking around with Courtney and I. We talked about the FUTURE. He told me write a book it would SOLVE everything. 


I miss my Mother with EVERYTHING in ME. As the ninth Summer without her enters the poignant time of her birth and transition I SMILE. I smile because this LIFE I live is MINE. For ONCE in my LIFE I’m truly living my life! That’s ALL she wanted for US. Kimberly, Courtney, David, Kazia, Kayla, Jermaine, Zakai and Bella! Those are GWEN’s KIDS! 


I love you Ginny! I love my children like you loved you’s the same just differently. You have to! I try to make you PROUD every day by being present in the moment. By growing! You are loved, missed and honored. 


Im creating my own life and staying in my own lane. I don’t wanna be around anyone or anything that doesn’t support me positively. I’m tired of showing up and being devalued, snubbed and unappreciated. Like I’m not KIM! 


I’m Moving Right Along! 

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