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Healing comes in many forms. I can only speak for myself but setting firm boundaries and choosing not to engage works wonders. I literally see people’s names and recoil. 


I always was making the effort. I’m not begging nobody to be in my life. I didn’t do nothing to nobody. JJ requires so MUCH of me. It’s funny because I realized just how much people don’t give AF when I stopped giving AF. I don’t CARE. If I NEVER spoke to some people again in LIFE  I will NEVER give AF. I laugh because life is so much easier without other people sh*t wearing you down. MAD out of NOWHERE. Creating FAKE conflict. Acting like yall not worried about ME but watch EVERYTHING I DO! 


I raised a whole human being before I was forty. It was good and bad times but at least I can say I was present and didn’t give up. I tell a lot of jokes but I sleep good ever night behind my kids. I do. Can’t nobody make me feel BAD.


Some of yall wanna dress like me, have my bubbly personality. Overcome adversity. Ooze sex appeal and confidence. Make a MF way out of NO WAY. It came at a COST. I’ve been bullied ALL my LIFE. Even about my KIDS. Mommy used to say “they just wanna be YOU” If I didn’t have the positive role models growing up I do not know who I would have been. I’m independent because my MOTHER was. Betty and Helen were my Grandmothers! I NEVER needed a MAN because I had a FATHER, TWO Grandfathers and TWO Godfathers. 


And I love Senior SO MUCH! He’s a REAL man! I do and I’ve learned so much from him! We can have IDENTICAL situations 🙄 and his way of handling it guarantees I have NOTHING to do with it. He never lets his storms get me wet. He taught me how to leave people to the ones they think so highly of. 


I truly believe I’m on the cusp of something. On the verge of a life changing breakthrough. My new perception of life is a catalyst. I sign up for EVERYTHING with confidence for myself as well as Jermaine. 


I stopped being hurt and started being focused. 


A NEW day has DAWNED. 


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