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Family Ties

Family Ties

I just want to take the time to acknowledge everyone in my life that makes it wonderful. I have really been having a great summer full of love, laughter and wonderful moments. I have learned to get out of my own way. To live in the moment. I’ve realized that the behavior of others is just that theirs and their lot in life and has NOTHING to do with me.

My children and our happiness is the only thing on my radar. David is GROWN with his own beliefs, opinions and mind. I can guide him but he is free to make his own choices. Jermaine is a child and although not immune by ANY means from the cruelty and malicious things that people and this world may serve up  I’m his Mommy, Advocate and Bodyguard. I try to keep this in mind at all times especially when the “Old Kim” that can make you CRY resurfaces.

My children are my Kryptonite and people know that. It must be a very DARK place to exist in when you go THERE. I could to but I like who I see in the mirror everyday. I love dressing my baby doll up for school and adventures. I worked HARD for half my life and I’m enjoying the fruits of my labor.

This ain’t my first ride at the rodeo. History will repeat itself and I will raise another winner who surely won’t emerge unscathed but still will be the VICTOR. I KNOW who I AM. The only things I own outright are my faith and my family. Uncle Sam Rogers taught me this oh so many years ago. So these two things shall and will sustain me.

As a handicapped person I have prided myself on being independent. I don’t care if I have to do whatever I have to do my children and I will ALWAYS be GOOD. The greatest test has been these last four years without my Mother. Thankfully my family and friends have in immeasurable ways been here for me.

My journey with my children has taught me so much! Above ALL I have realized that for every door that closed another one will open. People are going to talk about you they talked about Jesus Christ. As long as you remain committed to bettering yourself daily everything else will fall into place. I wish no ill will towards anyone. Just keep that same energy. I’m just thankful to be here.

Wake Up-Chinx (I do not own the rights to these lyrics)

Uh, from the biggest city even bigger dreamers
Pissy hallways way before we did arenas
Fresh up out my slumber then I praise the man
Lip seal for my homies never take the stand
Every time I thought I almost made it out
They stepped on my little campfire put it out
Wings broken will I fly again
Wake up in the morning then I try again

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