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When we were driving home last night I was thinking about Mommy as we passed her old job the post office. When she was off and we drove by anyone that was working their shift she would say “Hey Audrey, Hey Brina, Hey Jeanie....”my friends (Michael, Daniele, Kim, Vicky you know my REAL friends) KNOW when we went on trips I would say “my Mother works here”

I worked there when David was little and I hated it! I would be so LATE so they could fire me-they even had a meeting that I walked into LATE about my ASS. The supervisors were looking at the bitches that was complaining like” that’s Gwen’s Daughter GTFOH with that BS! i used to go inside and sit in the cage with Aunt Jeanie for hours. They let me work like 14 hours a day. I bust my ass for the first 8 and then would go walk around with Mommy or somebody lol. Sit in the cafeteria with Aunt Stephanie...

My Mother worked nights so her holiday started early...my Mother worked overtime for 2 months straight EVERY year m, EVERY day so that’s HOW no MATTER what we ALWAYS had all that shit for Christmas and she bought everyone SOMETHING...Nana would be like “wind it down-Gwen has to go to work...she would be pissed but she went-Uncle James got us home safe last night and Mommy had to be to work by 11 and he passed by at 10:35....she would of made it....

33 years of service  from 18 to 51....they wouldn’t let her drive the mail trucks even though she got her CDL and rocked that shit because she was a WOMAN back in the days and it broke her heart to be discriminated against but she kept it moving -but they take care of their OWN so that last job working in the vault with her own secretary was her mea culpa...yeah she had the highest seniority when she bid it but it made ALL the cold nights, early mornings and being there SICK worth it...she held on so long at the end to work there she used to laugh and say “I could do this until I’m 90”

There’s a transportation company that’s built strategically in front of building 250 so you can’t see the Post office anymore from Rockaway Turnpike...she started off at the old location and moved there in the early 80s...she got so MANY people jobs....I can’t see building 250 anymore but just like MOMMY it’s still there....

Ma I can’t ask YOU or Daddy when I started talking if it was closer to 3 or 4 but Auntie Helen, Aunts Colette and Aunt Jetaun REMEMBER because they were THERE! Jermaine is going to BE OK no matter WHAT! I KNOW you love me so much even from Heaven....I know you put up with SO MUCH because you had to go to WORK and he HELPED you! Our life wasn’t perfect but it was GOOD! BOTH your daughters turned out GREAT! It was 20 of us this weekend Mommy Nana must of been beaming 🙏🏾Your grandkids love and miss you but you know they are STARS so whatever life hands them they make that shit look GOOD....

This weekend I woke up halfway through a LONG sleep... JJ was SAFE because Kazia put him to BED, ALL the doors were LOCKED for him 😢and I looked up and Amber, Eboni, and Court was laughing hysterically at the table....the THREE voices I ALWAYS HEAR 😢Aunt Colette was walking towards me dancing beckoning me to get up...I smiled and went back to sleep...I got the best REST so you REST ok... YOU taught me to WRITE like THIS-YOU taught me to LOVE like this but ABOVE ALL YOU taught me that GOD sees ME-how many times did you PRAY for me to TALK??? YOU never told me to shut up until the LAST ambulance ride because of the BABY(JJ) Sharon helps me with JJ SO MUCH Ma as YOU can SEE so you tell Ms. Scottie I’m a help her with THIS💪🏾I love you Ginny....

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