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Changing the Narrative



Today is a CHILL day(can I say THAT?) šŸ¤£After class and a few meetings JJ and I are going to have FUN. I do my BEST and GOD does the REST! Twenty years will FLY by and I not only hope to be here to SEE it but to witness the fruits of my LABOR. 


Iā€™m living my life day by day. Trusting God and His Wisdom. This period in history will define EVERY generation. Iā€™m learning so much about myself. Iā€™m a giver, a healer but I deplete my own resources by extending myself. So Iā€™ve STOPPED. 


One of the WORST days and BEST days of my life (simultaneously) was getting JJ tested for his HEARING. I was ALONE. The head of the hospital was so kind and gracious and understanding. I never told anyone but Big David how I truly FEEL about Jermaineā€™s Autism diagnosis. The TRUTH, TRUTH. Candid, raw and vulnerable it was so cathartic. The long road and the exposure of my insecurities and shortcomings. It led to my breakthrough and my journey to healing. A man of few words yet he ALWAYS knows just what to say. 


I will NEVER forget how last year changed ME. It made me realize that God is truly in control. We each get the opportunity and choice daily to be positive, productive and at PEACE. I cut off ANYTHING that doesnā€™t facilitate THAT! I put EVERYTHING that I was stretching to make others feel good and poured it into me! I even took some of my attention for JJ and put it into myself. Itā€™s self preservation and itā€™s imperative. 


I KNOW quite a FEW people who needs to HEAR this šŸ˜but you CAN support your family and friends in LIFE and still LIVE yours! You can be HAPPY for others and God will bless you. I love my kids and my Nigga too šŸ™‹šŸ¾ā€ā™€ļøyet I carved out a niche for people and time and time again got well sent to crucial appointments ALONE so I FELL back!!! Never OFF just BACKšŸ—£The period of time from when my Mother passed, being pregnant with Jermaine Jr. and TODAY is what my book is focusing on and if you want to be portrayed better you should of been BETTER and if being better than ME is your goal in LIFE by all means GO HARD! If you want to say that someone GAVE me something OK but yā€™all know Iā€™m KIM and Iā€™m only going to get BETTER, wealthier and prosper more(Inserts President Obama shrug I think at the Capitol GIF)


I digress-the reason I am changing the narrative is because I got TIRED of saying the same thing. It was all designed by The Creator. I had to truly let go of the past, habits and focus on my future and ME.   #MovingRightAlong #60daychallengeļæ¼ #MarchFirst #Nothingwillbethesameinayear #MambaMentality

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