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Through the Fire

I have been going through some things recently as I’m SURE we ALL have. At my former employer, the union motto was “In unity there’s strength! That’s not always TRUE and it’s not always a negative thing to stand or walk alone. 


I’m not going to allow ANYONE to make me feel inadequate or that my feelings don’t matter or are not valid! I’m not SORRY I’m GREAT at MANY things. I’m not SORRY that The Creator TIME and TIME again has made a way for ME! This is His PLAN and not mine.....


My Mother used to say “if wishes were horses beggars would ride” During this time in HISTORY where uncertainty, sickness, strife and chaos linger in the air like a fog at sunrise I KNOW who I AM! I know how long it has taken me to get here and how far I have come. I didn’t WISH for it I WORKED for it! 


My son Jermaine Jr. is my BABY! He is one of  the most intelligent, handsome and dapper young  men I have ever encountered. To KNOW him is to LOVE and ADORE my CHILD! He is the personification of bliss. He is so SWEET! 


I don’t CARE what ANYONE thinks or says about ME! I’m almost closer to 50 than 40 and ALL of my LIFE no matter how many city wide writing contests and spelling bees I won, grades skipped, overcoming my hearing impairment and leading a fulfilled life for myself and sons I’m STILL targeted because OTHERS don’t like WHO they SEE in the MiRROR. That doesn’t have ANYTHING to do WITH me....


You open up Facebook and SEE something I post before I wash the dishes or JJ gets my phone and deletes every app I have in 27 seconds. My child turns the lights on in my house OVER and OVER and OVER and OVER again! Teaching a child to speak and you are deaf is so HARD! I just keep it moving right along because God gives His toughest battles to his strongest soldiers. I’m a leader by example and inspiring others to not give up despite your present circumstances. 


I’m not going to sheepishly go quietly into the night and sit in the corner like they TRIED to do “Baby”  I’m just OK over HERE! I am! I’m over here creating, living and THRIVING! Im not perfect and don’t claim to be! But God knows my HEART! 


I digress, the same people that think I’m jealous or envy them I really PITY you. After EVERYTHING we have experienced and witnessed you still choose to tear people down because your not happy within. 

That’s some sad shit. 


They talked about Jesus Christ. I’m just going to KEEP getting BETTER.  Aint nobody got to worry about me “bothering” them. I’m dead ass serious. Moving Right Along 


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