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Dear Mama



My Mother passed away 7 years ago this WEEK and it’s really difficult because it’s very close to her birthday so this is a melancholy (Nana’s favorite word) time for me....


I thank GOD for my FAMILY! They have my back, front and sides and this weekend let me RELAX for a minute. We took JJ to the Festival and he enjoyed himself and then celebrated Eboni’s birthday and even though she and Bert have their OWN 3 kids  EVERYTHING be about JJ even Nani was like “I got him” and pushed him ALL day on the swings and that’s Angel and Virgens daughter who’s like 6 months older I think lol. 


When my Mother died I KNOW she KNEW Aunt Colette was going to BE just like she is to me EVERYTHING. NOBODY can take your PLACE Ginny but AUNTIE and Aunt Colette DO things just like you COLLECTIVELY. Aunt Darlene, Aunt Rosalie, Auntie S. (“Don’t SING/RAP it Kim SPEAK it) Shewana, TATILLA ,Titis Vanessa and Lisy, Rita, Talitha, Jaime and Jami, ALL the KIDS....AND Uncle James gonna always get us HOME safe. Uncle Ron is going to ALWAYS make sure we have what we need because he’s bringing it to ME...Uncle Sam is ALWAYS gonna CHECK my Homework 💪🏾and Rindy is going to ALWAYS talk some sense into me LITERALLY at times. 


This year is SO different because Gary is GONE. But you KNOW Tab(you and Daddy’s Fav) lives in AZ so we made plans and I’m thankful for the connections I forged in my life. You had some GREAT friends. I’m a go see your best one with God’s Grace. I may be 16 years late but I’m a make it....


She ALWAYS told me “Trust HIM Kim” and I DO! HE KNOWS the plans He has for ME. I miss you both so much but You were not a CRIER! You were the most independent, unapologetic and BEST Mother I have EVER MET. 


I digress-I’m so READY for Spoken word-The fact that you were telling me to do it since “Love Jones” came out just makes it even more poignant..I MISS you so MUCH and I promised Bert no TEARS but I’m SMILING through them because my baby that you handed me from Heaven with a kiss and a smile said “turn it off” tonight soooo.....❤️❤️❤️ #ChessNotCheckers

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