I never dreamed you’d leave in Summer

It isn’t just the big WINS but the SMALL things that truly MATTERS. This was three years ago today. Jermaine Jr. and I on our way to one of our ADVENTURES. I always try to spend your birthday and the time you transitioned somewhere beautiful. Last year was NOLA and California. This year BOY oh BOY even though it’s a little delayed.....

My Mama knew I was having JJ but didn’t know the sex before she passed away. She would of been elated that she has another boy. Actually two more with her great grandson Zakai. She was surprised yet happy for me. Another generation, another chance and YES it was a BOY just like she predicted. “His Father would be so happy she said”. She loved Jermaine Sr. like her own Son.

I get sad because the things I CANNOT do YOU have ALWAYS done for me so I NEVER had to learn how to do. Over the years since you’ve been GONE I have learned to do them myself. You loved David so much and he ALWAYS makes it (slides through home base) so don’t even worry myself you always said that and yes my child does! I’m so proud of him Ginny. It’s the YALL in him he carries that with him.

You never NEEDED anyone so your TRIBE was filled with GOOD people and most of y’all are reunited. It’s amazing how CLOSE Allen and Gary kids are with me like it’s beautiful and born out of trying to emulate the lifelong bond you HAD with them on EARTH that y’all replicated in Heaven. They were BROKEN when you died your cousins were REALLY your BROTHERS and this YEAR Gary not checking on ME because he’s with YOU. I take comfort in that.

I REALLY said to Aunt Colette yesterday “she’s never coming back” because I STILL don’t believe it! I miss you SO MUCH I’m just trying to let LIFE play out and be GENUINE! Daniele says I am the most genuine person and kind and that’s why I stay blessed! I stopped being NICE and started being KIND. Big David taught me that the Year the world stopped....it changed EVERYTHING.....

I miss you Ginny and love you ALWAYS. Tell my Daddy I’m just MOVING right along..... #AlifewellLIVED

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