YOU are Enough

When David was little I was always RUSHING, busting my ASS and EARS trying to make ends meet. Working a job that I detested to give my child a life many would COVET 😏🤦🏾‍♀️ But there’s GLORY in my STORY because it was written by The Creator and this go round I am present and my Baby is TALKING! NOTHING in the WORLD means more to ME than THAT!  BOTH my children see me being the independent, fearless and STRONG woman that is a replica of my dear, beautiful departed Mother. I’m sorry Ginny if you never knew how much I truly appreciate you on Earth and in Heaven because you were one of kind and raised us the best you could with what you had and I am honored to be your child.  I emphasize the word STRONG because the love of my life saw in me what I couldn’t see in MYSELF! Sometimes in our quest for normalcy and inclusion we forget to embrace the fact that we aren’t born to just fit in we are born to stand out!  My Paternal Grandmother loved each and every one of us uniquely ...

  One thing about LIFE is that it is just a moment! That’s the unique thing about it the time surely flies! Kids that were born in my twenties are GROWN and as I walk around my neighborhood I see that during this Pandemic an entire new city has emerged.... I used to be so angry and disappointed when people reveal who they truly are. Not any more. It allows me to literally trim the guest list of my life. For almost six years my Mother hasn’t been here to physically guide me or help me navigate through life-she’s the only one I truly miss sitting on my couch yet  I AM doing JUST FINE! 🙏🏾Isolation leads to elevation it truly does.  When you are melancholy(Nana’s word), morose, miserable, dejected, sad and depressed people distance themselves because it can be TOO much for them. That’s ok! Some even use this as a head start to try to get ahead of you or take all of their resources and sometimes other may even assist. them to attain a semblance of superiority over you. It’s ...

 WCW I really am ENJOYING life! The first rule is don’t sweat the PAST! I am and always will be a perfectionist and a HOARDER🤣🤣🤣🤣I always disappointed myself and my attachment to my possessions was UNHEALTHY! If you throw some shit away you can buy more shit KIM! Clearing the clutter and chaos has sustained me! And I can buy NEW shit 🤣🤣🤣🤣 So many events happened! Big David changed my LIFE! He did! He set me on a trajectory that God instilled in Him! He sees in my sons and I a LIGHT that I NEVER did! He turned it ON!  The ache I have for my Mother was like a veil that I lifted daily(she would of loved that analogy ❤️) happiness was a cloak that I adorned periodically. (Another Gwen gem) I was lost and my hearing, my EARS were truly GONE. Through this tumultuous time I found my VOICE!  Aunt Brina passing away from Covid in NY was also a catalyst. The small shit doesn’t matter in the grand scheme of things we call LIFE! The most independent and organized one out of e...

Throughout the Pandemic, the Lockdown and all the turn of events that has crafted a new normal and varies daily I have discovered ways to be creative. To bide my time and maximize my social media and internet usage while juggling everything that life throws at me. PreMadonna has given us an outlet to tap into our hidden and overt cooking talents. During the holiday season her videos gave us LIFE and awakened the Domestic god and goddesses in us all. Her spin on things and her routines has simplified tasks that we use to fear and loath. Her products are affordable and geared to make the time we spend crafting meals for our families enjoyable. You don’t have to break the bank for your food to look and taste like a million bucks.  This Month as we celebrate Women’s History I can not think of anyone who hasn’t brought the hustler out of her gender with her inspirational and candid look at her life. As we all acknowledge there’s no rest for the weary this woman has been on the MOVE even...

  My grandmother is on my mind because her anniversary is coming up.....I realize how much of an influence she is on me. You know why I have this vast vocabulary? Because Nana used to TALK to me....my family doesn’t really like to talk to about it because I talk so much now🤣🤣🤣 but I was speech delayed as well. I believe it was because of my hearing I always had hearing problems my parents and teachers just masked and hid it because well I was a gifted, black little girl growing up in NYC in a time where every spot was a challenge. It more than likely was co-signed and approved by Nana... My Grandmother was to me in death what she was in life-My Role Model. I KNOW almost everything about her and it makes me admire her more. The respect my Mother had for her was so touching. She always used to say “Miss Betty loves my kids” with pride! Nana gave us everything! ALL of US every time. Christmas, Easter, Halloween, Memorial Day, Fourth of July, we was lit! I am so confident body wise ...

 I did it like 5 times as a Directory Assistance Operator that shift was rough and I was young . My Father worked 630 am-230pm in the Post office he would be at work mad early. Even his funeral started on TIME! 🙏🏾 My mother switched from nights (11-7) to 7am-3pm after 25 years. She worked in the Post Office from the time she was 18 until she retired. She wanted to work in the bank she was brilliant with numbers a trait Courtney inherited. The Post Offive called her first and she committed to it and THEN the bank called her.... She was so MAD at herself for not switching sooner. She wanted to spend every second available to us. I SEE that NOW/. We had the same phone number until I was grown. She always left the best impressions. When she died the man that owns the check cashing place told me that my Mother was one of the most responsible people he ever met...How many times did he cash her checks and she spent almost every dime on bills? No Food Stamps. no Jiggets, no Section 8, no...

Nobody: Mommy in the 90’s: Somebody gonna HURT Wendy one day.... Nobody (AGAIN): Mommy: she ain’t lying tho 🧐🤣🤣🤣 I could HEAR back THEN and we listened to the radio EVERY day the shit Wendy would say about people 🥺😱it was HARSH but TRUE like she worked hard in this industry and I really liked this movie....she secured that bag for herself and this MF almost broke her. She portrayed him better than she could if I remember mad shit but like I said I liked this movie I was pleasantly surprised and entertained.  I didn’t watch the documentary yet but I felt THIS on so many levels. He wouldn’t let her talk about herself so she lashed out about others. That was the control. He kept her busy and spent so much time with her that when he was gone she was ok. And he loves her son that’s WHY she STAYED. He got sloppy and he violated to the fullest.  I don’t really KNOW this isn’t any of my fuckin business 🤣🤣🤣 Nobody:  Mommy: Wendy tries TOO hard. She is brave and she should...