YOU are Enough

  Healing comes in many forms. I can only speak for myself but setting firm boundaries and choosing not to engage works wonders. I literally see people’s names and recoil.  I always was making the effort. I’m not begging nobody to be in my life. I didn’t do nothing to nobody. JJ requires so MUCH of me. It’s funny because I realized just how much people don’t give AF when I stopped giving AF. I don’t CARE. If I NEVER spoke to some people again in LIFE  I will NEVER give AF. I laugh because life is so much easier without other people sh*t wearing you down. MAD out of NOWHERE. Creating FAKE conflict. Acting like yall not worried about ME but watch EVERYTHING I DO!  I raised a whole human being before I was forty. It was good and bad times but at least I can say I was present and didn’t give up. I tell a lot of jokes but I sleep good ever night behind my kids. I do. Can’t nobody make me feel BAD. Some of yall wanna dress like me, have my bubbly personality. Overcome adve...

 Kim’s Korner  Everyone has FANS that are OBSESSED with THEM OK! I LOVE Jay-Z from the BEGINNING called him HOV and Everything! Aunt Audrey was so mad 🤣🕊️I am LOYAL to THAT Man! He’s a BUSINESS MAN 💪🏾🐐I WATCH what I SAY too because the Bey or Bee Hive is CRAZY they will be online calling me all kinds of MUTE WHALES🤣🤣🤣🤣 SHE cannot control them or tell them to STOP 🤣🤣🤣🤣Chris Brown loyalists don’t GIVE AF about NOTHING but HIM🤣🤣🤣🤣💯💯💯💯 But Nicki Minaj BARBZ y’all do THE MOST! Funny thing is I BET they are the most law abiding, good credit having, nicest people in the world. The bartender at a party I planned is one. He was so nice and dope! Like one she KNOWS 💯That Woman can say James Evans (“ the Father on Good Times”)deserved to DIE 🤣🤣🤣🤣💀💀💀💀and her FANS will find 182 reasons to support HER! Never seen an episode in their LIVES. I used to go to the Co-op Mall in Rochdale with Aunt Colette six times a day. Nana was in OTB and she was going to get me a...

  Mommy and her friends at Russo’s on the Bay at a Post office reunion. Uncle Goode sent me this and boy oh boy was I startled this morning.  I see her life as a testament that you reap what you sow. It takes under ten seconds to tell anyone what you do for a living. My Mother worked in the Post office her entire career. After a brief stint as a teenager with Auntie Helen at ironically the phone company.  Choosing a federal job over the BANK! She was hired on the SPOT as a woman of color because she was a mathematical genius. Courtney inherited that trait for her. She was seventeen years old. Tour 1 like a FOOL (11pm-7am)she would say. After she began working in the Vault 7am-3pm after almost thirty years of the night shift. She was in the vault in the Post Office at JFK in NYC on September 11, 2001.  She was concerned about me getting home newly hearing impaired at MetroTech downtown Brooklyn. I love EVERYTHING about you Ma but the BEST thing was you were so GENUINE...

 I truly want to Thank GOD for ALL He does for ME! I give him ALL The Glory! He has TRULY changed my life for the BETTER!  It didn’t happen OVERNIGHT! Each day is a gift and a LESSON. Change is NECESSARY! Some people have been the SAME way their entire lives….it’s SAD! It’s not authenticity-it’s remaining stagnant.  My Mother raised me to be independent and humble. She showed me an example of who a hardworking and caring human being was.  I don’t care who don’t LIKE me. I LIKE me! I don’t care who doing what! I don’t compare my journey or the one my children are on with ANYONE. I keep the ones who love and get me CLOSE.  Quarantine and Covid taught me that we will RUN out of TIME. My last memory of my Aunt Zabrina is her sitting at the table holding J.J. rocking him. I said to her “this your baby!” She said to me “y’all all my babies.”  I didn’t spend the last time-I MEAN the LAST time with my Uncle James talking about ANYTHING that didn’t matter. We talked...

 As I write but more importantly LIVE I THANK y’all for letting me sit in the front of the bus and listen to music with y’all when I stilll could hear. Papa used to turn the music up real loud for me too on the way to his customers to make his deliveries.  For keeping me in Ms, Goldstein’s class knowing I may have needed a different environment. For coming to my first day of Junior High school (albeit afterschool WHO does that?) For pressing my hair SO GOOD the first day of Martin. For telling me that Brooklyn Tech was a memory (I got waitlisted and didn’t want to go to Summer School to get in because I didn’t want to go there and NANA and GRANNY knew it! ) To not beat myself up over it. (Mommy is STILL MAD in Heaven❤️) To standing outside Martin with Aunt Colette and Mommy because the girls didn’t like me but the boys did!  The most important lesson I learned was to put ME FIRST! NANA you loved us ALL independently and individually. You made sure we had toiletries, pens ...

 True Story I just wanna move to the West Coast! Bakersfield, Anaheim, Fresno I don’t care  at this point.My entire life I put everyone FIRST. You can’t even put your KIDS first because it might literally kill you.  This time of year is so poignant because my Mother’s Birthday and transition are less than a month apart. Nothing in this world can prepare you for losing a parent. I subconsciously and overtly feel like I didn’t truly grieve at first because I was pregnant with J.J. I’m extremely hard on myself. I’m working on it and seeing others just truly not give AF about ANYTHING helps. It does. I’m tired of giving exit interviews. The most disrespectful thing you can do to a deaf person is text them something. I saw what you said. In some instances I kept it too for legal purposes.  I digress-this year has been eye opening on many levels. I’ve watched people that should be the first to help especially the circumstances offer NOTHING. I’ve seen people that are stret...

I just want a FRESH start somewhere ELSE….. we will be OK! I remember when I first lost the majority of my hearing almost 25 years ago. I had just gotten a promotion at the Phone Company of all places! I was a young, single Black Mom of a child whose Father was Cacausian and incarcerated. This was 2001 NOT 2024! I always defy the odds. That’s how I learned to tackle JJ’s Autism by leaning on my Faith. I know I can survive ANYTHING.  Three of my Grandparents and my Parents were still alive. They helped me through EVERYTHING (Acceptance, monetary support, positivity) Gotti( Ronald Washington) became one of my best friends that Summer. He used to pick on me because he was an asshole and didn’t KNOW I was Deaf-not just a Big Butt Bitch from Mott who moved to Central. So when he found out I was deaf he promised that he would always be there to watch out for me. I miss my FRIEND every day. I carry him in my heart.  I KNOW my LIFE looks AMAZING on social media. It’s really DOPE in RE...

 I haven’t been bothering ANYONE I stay to myself and take care of my child and my business! I saw two GORGEOUS apartments in NY that wasn’t the right fit for JJ and I. With Aunt Colette and Ms. May because no matter WHAT they have going ON they GOT me! So in ONE WEEK I have set in place the steps to for THE FIRST TIME in my LIFE do exactly WTF I WANNA do! It’s so LIBERATING!  I’m not letting NOBODY stress me OUT! Y’all can HAVE that! I’m JJ’s EVERYTHING! I’m such a GOOD MOTHER! BOTH TIMES! I ask GOD EVERY day to give me the strength to keep moving! Y’all don’t KNOW what I go through!  I don’t care WHO TALK about ME!  I don’t CARE! I always did! I always respect people that don’t respect me! I love who I LOVE! SO! I LISTEN and act RIGHT too! I co-sign on EVERYTHING y’all do! I give the fresh perspective, advice when solicited because WHO AM I TO JUDGE!  I’m so HAPPY and PROUD of myself! My Sister and I are a TAG TEAM! My FAMILY is AMAZING and Nana and Pop Pop di...

I love my family and friends! I’m looking at the videos and my FAMILY is right there and my true FRIENDS! Nothing is too unrealistic because I’m KIM! Sometimes I do go OVERBOARD and y’all bring me back to reality lol!  I love my sons but this little girl right HERE-she’s so SMART like she would listen at to me rattle off my lists, watch me hustle.  Just like Granny and I. You are so beautiful in my memories because it was REAL. The elegance and glamour. The cheeseburgers and rutabagas. Cut rutabagas like fries and make a cheeseburger like a magazine cover.  Who does that? Wallpaper walls felt like silk? Was it silk? Who does that? An innovator.  Bae and JJ like Bruce Lee movies! Omg I have seen these movies with you 😂😂😂😂😂they are so good now that I’m grown! I don’t talk when we’re watching them I am thinking about YOU. The last days and YOUR President! The way you said his name. I could ALWAYS hear you!  Just like Nana and I. O I think back on all you taugh...

 This year taught me many things. You reap what you sow. Point blank period! Happiness comes from within. It’s never a true loss if you learned something. Self-care is not selfish it’s a necessity. To thine own self be true.  I used to literally toss and turn about stuff that had nothing to do with me. Other people’s problems that were just that-they’re problems. PTSD situations and my triggers. Dragged down by my need to save people! Not anymore. Good luck with that.  Im not PERFECT! I love TOO HARD and don’t know how to go with the flow! SIKE! 2023 was my year to truly DO ME! It’s been a work in progress. It didn’t come overnight but gradually I have come to embrace and accept that I’m the sh*t! I draw strength from my Grandparents! My Parents all my elders! Aunt Colette will always be BEST dressed and I got this from her. They ALL fly and humble like their Mothers.  Mrs.Young my fourth grade teacher would put on her lipstick and grab her pocketbook and fur coat an...

 WCW I’m writing about my Grandmother for her birthday. The way she wanted me to when she was alive. The stories that my family attempt to elicit out of me. In 5th Grade I won the NYC Writing Contest based on an piece I wrote about Nana. I literally blocked it out guys ALL these years.  Not that  it was about her but the depth of the subject matter. It was the only time besides when Carlyn died and my Daddy that I really saw her cry HARD. Even now I feel like I am betraying her(I know for naught) Nothing fazed this WOMAN. To compensate for my deplorable handwriting God assigned me the gift of prose. Mommy was sooo elated. Ms. Rand too. It had been a HARD year for my family  I also have a great Memory and my paper Ms. Goldstein held on to it like Ms. Douglas and Ms. Kaplan and Karen Connors would later down the line. They always reread it over and over again and would look at me. When I feel weak and get tired of fighting the powers that be and who don’t BE I draw on ...

  I read that when you feel stressed out you should plan a vacation. My good friend who supported me throughout the years in many ways invited me to celebrate her birthday with her. I’m really excited because she’s amazing and a true BOSS and we are going to have a TIME.  I am making monumental strides in life. I’m Moving Right Along like my Father taught me. Early this morning my Aunt Darlene’s post about my Mothers favorite song “I wanna Thank You” (Heavenly Father) by Alicia Meyers. It’s Michael B. Jordan’s favorite song too. He said it in Vogue’s 73 Questions.  Just seeing my Mothers Name and the fact that this was her song brought so many memories back. This world is beyond ridiculous now. Like my heart hurts but I cannot let it break. So I’m living each day on purpose in my truest form. Self care is not selfish it’s a necessity. We watch reality tv and come on. All that money. It doesn’t buy happiness but it alleviates so many problems. So choose peace every day. An...

I spent a lot of time alone. For the first time in my life I truly reflected on where I am, where I wanna go and where I have been. I cannot go back and undo anything. There are no do-overs. Just moments that will matter.   I was raised on sitcoms and soap operas. I wrote plays and skits as a child. In my teenage years I rebelled but I was given absolution from my Family and God when both my sons were born a generation apart. The two human beings that I never once thought about not bringing into this world.  I’m living every day on purpose and in my own element. I’m thriving because I’m changing everything I ever was into everything I can be. I had to give myself permission to do this . It changed my life.  I tried to see the good in everyone. It’s not my journey. I can’t care about everyone. Mommy told me that after Chevelle died. She told me my heart was so big. But it can’t carry everyone . It will burst. She said she knows I thought she was a bit cold but it...

 Hi Everyone! I feel AMAZING and I hope you do to!  I’m praying for everyone who is going through something right now. It will get BETTER. Maybe not right now, maybe not in the near future. Maybe not for a LONG time. But it will. I am a testament to that.  I’m keeping it so REAL with y’all. I had to go through  some dark times to see the bright light that I am. To know it’s ok to DREAM because God will TOP that. To be confident in the knowledge that my purpose, my calling is to be a conduit between the things I have experienced and witnessed and the WORLD.  In the immortal words of Jason Terrance Phillips “I’m not cocky, I’m just confident. So when you tell me I’m the best m, it’s a compliment”-Jadakiss #movingrightalong #Jadakiss