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Live, Laugh, Love

2017 is almost over. This year politically, emotionally and physically has been one for the books. In life one event can set in to motion many things. I am thankful for the journey but the experiences have led to catastrophic results on many levels. I do love the fact that minorities and women have taken stands and made strides for equality and acceptance. 

Personally I have been on a quest for peace. The people I surround myself with have my best interests at heart. I am fearless in my pursuit of happiness. I'm stepping out of my comfort zone and trying new things. SHIT I went roller skating last week. My oldest son is almost twenty-one years old. He has NEVER seen me on skates in his entire life! The irony of it is when I was younger my Father and I used to skate everywhere. Life is about taking chances, enjoying yourself and forgiveness. The lot of others is their's to bear not yours. Let go of the bitterness, disdain and YES in some instances disgust. Being angry only hurts you in the end. Karma is REAL and will come. Let people be just that-people. 

I'm just trying to live a great life and show my boys the world. We spend a lot of time together and the bond my kids have makes everything worthwhile. I'm tired of being cranky, fussy, frazzled and overwhelmed. I am truly living in the moment and loving it. I love the space I have created for myself and my sons. I love who I have evolved and reinvented myself into and the self care and preparation that goes into maintaining the best me. When you read my book just know that through it ALL a better me has emerged. I didn't love the process but am so grateful for it. 

When I was pregnant with David I thought I had lived so much life. It hadn't even begun. When I was pregnant with Jermaine I thought I was content with my life. It hadn't even begun. I am so blessed to have consistent, positive and loyal people in my life. Who bear some of my load, encourage me and support my endeavors. Who I can create with, vent to and build with. This year for every person I let go I embraced the opportunity of letting someone else in. Life is about change, joy and above all PEACE. There is a huge amount of freedom that comes to you when you take nothing personally. 

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