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Good Tidings We Bring to you and your Kin

I'm in such a festive mood this year. I am excited about the holidays. Christmastime brings joy, peace and love. It allows you to celebrate the year and the traditions that mean so much. Lucky is gone this year but my precious Kitty lives on in my heart and his stocking will hang like it always has in honor of him. I have had two cats in my life who were ironically related and looked very much alike. I don't think I will ever get another Cat. We are getting Jermaine a SURPRISE for Christmas amongst other things. It's more for me though lol. I'm just excited to see my baby's face on Christmas morning. Knowing him he's just gonna play with the wrapping paper or knowing his meticulous self get it up and push you out the way to see the television. The Yule Log will be on in honor of my Father.

 The greatest gift I received this year other than the deliverance from anything hindering my growth is the shift of my views of my childhood. I love my Father so much and have such a respect for him. It was never about him it was always about us. He LOST HIMSELF at times but also found a way to reach me even now. Ronald and Kim used to be so petty. The jokesters, clowns. Mommy's laugh was infectious but Daddy would dig you a ditch with his barbs and push you in face first. J.J. puts his whole hand in his mouth just like him.

So this year I am going to bake cookies, crush candy canes and sprinkle them on top of hot cocoa. I'm going to take pictures and smile. I'm not going to worry about being perfect. David loves off the cuff videos yet I'm always finding an excuse not to be in them. My oldest son TRULY believes I'm going to be a STAR. You know how good that makes me feel? And my baby shoot let me find Sesame Street on the television I get the warmest hugs. He's watching it right now as I type and enjoy my morning coffee.

I am so glad this year played out exactly like it did. I needed it to find my independence. Not for nothing but giving up cigarettes, stepping out of my comfort zone and just not giving a damn has served me so well. Good Tiding We Bring for you and your Kin-we wish you a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.

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  1. UnknownDecember 6, 2017 at 8:23 AM

    Aww cuz my view on my childhood has changed also. I feel as though all of the events the good and the bad was arranged by God. During my #awakening, memories long forgotten was lined up and arranged for my understanding. Downloaded into my brain which left my head leaning to the side as if someone just "fucked the shit outta me"...lol. Beautiful it is!

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    1. Kimberly JenkinsDecember 6, 2017 at 2:14 PM

      Nana was the best! She tried the best she could and gave each of us a bit of life! Our Queen she did it ALL and didn't complain about it! We are family and I love you

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